I remember the first time when I actually notice you. I was sitting at the back of the room, talking to one of our classmates and when you opened the door, you walked by and I saw you smiling, it caught my attention, then you went to the teachers table to talk to the others, since then you made me smile. How cheesy, I know! I made a fool out myself, I even bothered to change my hair, put some little make-up and I even try to impress you but what did I get? a huge humiliation. It’s funny, right?

Like in the movies, everything slows down.

I remember those days when all I could ever think about is you. I mean, how I control my smile around you, when all I get is butterflies and rainbows everywhere since I practically blush when you’re around. And up to now, nobody could top that.

I caught myself smiling alone and I was building castles in the air about you. Remember the day when you interchanged two different fairytales? And the way you took it back, how about the day when we’re watching a movie, when you suddenly blurted out that they were frogs when basically, they’re turtles! It’s very adorable.

I’ve been present in our world every now and then since it’s fun to recall spectacular moments with you, they we’re breathtaking. You don’t know how much happiness you’re giving me when we’re together. I’m living in a fairytale. It’s too good to be true. I nearly stop thinking about my worries because being with you even for just a little while is very precious for the reason that I know one day, you’ll not be around.

You taught me to believe in fairytales..

I can’t bring back those days. I hope one day, we could be together like we used to, watch a movie or just plainly laugh about anything. SOMEDAY.

I fell for you. Maybe, I just saw something in you that nobody else can see. I saw how wonderful you are and I don’t care if nobody understands that. You gave me reasons to be closer to God, and I thank you for that.

Everything is different now, everything changed. You’re in your own now and I’m in mine. I don’t know when our worlds will meet again. And when that day comes, there’s a big chance that I’ll fall in love with you again.

Sometimes I wish everything never happened but for a little while you gave me bliss and I won’t trade that for anything else in this world. I would rather be with you once than not at all. I would rather be in silent beside you than laughing with somebody else.

Everyday, I open the newly painted classrooms but the memories of you are still there. I stepped on every tile you stepped on and remember our hellos and goodbyes in the hall. I sit on your chair, imagining that you’re still here and I can still remember the day when I noticed you. Every individual who hugged me ever since the day you left, I’m wishing it was you. And every time someone hug me I always remember you and how I badly miss you and I wish I’ve proved to you my feelings. I’m just too scared. I don’t have the guts to take the risk.

I know nothing will happen but it’s just my way of ventilating my emotions. I may not be the girl you used to know but the memories of you and me; it’s my constant reminder of a wonderful feeling.

Maybe you’re thinking it’s too theatrical but it’s not. These are the words that I can’t deliver to you. Every night, I rehearse every word that I want to tell you despite the fact I wouldn't be able to say it.

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i just want to share this to everybody... maybe i can help somebody out there and so that they can ventilate their emotions too..

i made this letter after he left... it's been half a year since i saw him!! well, i'm good now.. i moved on and i'm really happy!!!!!!!!