I was just reading one of my blogs from another site, I was really inspired, maybe bcuz I was in love, or at least that's what I thought. Now I realize, how can you love someone else if you don't love urself? All the time I was blaming me, always regreting who I was, what I did, where I was, but now I know better, it's wasn't my fault he decided to run away, there's nothing wrong with me, he's the one with problem. I was offering him my heart, which I thought he wanted but he didn't and instead he returned it broken and bleeding in tears, back then, I was down, but now I thank him bcuz he made my heart stronger. I was desperate to fall in love, to get over him, I tried everything to get rid of him. I always thought that another guy would help me forget him, but it didn't work and I broke hearts too.

It's almost two years since I first met him. I look back and I see a different me. A naive me and will never again be that girl. No one else will fool me like he did. No one else will play with my heart. Maybe I am scared, but it's ok to be scared, isn't it? I'm not giving up on love, I'm just taking a break. After all, I'm just 17 years old, there's lots of time to love.