So yes, it's been kinda weird this days, it seems to me that I have no time for anything, not even to dream. I sleep so deeply that I don't dream, or maybe I do but don't remember, whice is even worse. I've not seen Nick for days! The thing is that I started a parttime job and I've got tons of homeworks. Last month it was worse because I had exams but everything came out right I got A's on all my subjects. That's a load less. I can't believe I slept 12 hours before and now I'm sleeping only 5 or 6. My eyes are closing in this moment.

Anyway, last night I was doing some thinking about a guy that hadn't thought in quite a time, but now I can't take him out of my mind. I mean, we don't even talk to each other anymore, but that's why I think so much in him. I was asking myself how can you not talk to a person you kissed? I kiss is special, the person has to be special, why did we stop talking to each other. We should talk to each other, at least as friends... Or probably not. I think I still feel something for him. I've been missing him. This feeling has been driving me crazy for the past year. Sometimes I feel like it's ok without him, but there are other days when I miss him so much and think about what it could have been. I must be retarded or something, I've been crushing with this boy for one year and 9 months. Wow.. 1 year and 9 months and I'm still not over him. Once I think I'm good, he comes back, why? Does he think of me? Does he know I'm still alive? He has a gf, I should get a bf and move on too. He doesn't care, why should I? f*** him! haha

Gotta go!